Through the stormy waves I ride

There is no direction in sight

I fumble for CONTROL

Which I cannot find

Fear strikes like a piercing sword

Waves high; I cannot steer—

I am drowning

But then, out of the darkness

His still yet undeniable voice reminds me

I go before you and will be with you (Deuteronomy 31:8)

I hold you by your right hand (Isaiah 41:13)

Let me take CONTROL

And put a new song in your mouth (Psalm 40:3)

The storm persists

A new shape takes form in front of me

He takes the paddle

And steers me through the waves

A peaceful calm takes over my being

I let go

And let Him be in CONTROL

This last half year has been challenging for me. It came with worries regarding family and tough changes in my own life. I felt helpless in helping my family and lost in the changes I did not want. I was given an image by a friend for a member of my family that aligns with the above verses.

Jesus taking control, and a letting go. Not only was this a powerful image for my mom, but it was a beautiful reminder for me.

Letting go of my own grasp on my life in my feeble attempts to be in control do not work, and I was constantly reminded that I have to open my hands and let Jesus take over. I am not perfect at this by any means, but when I am able to give it to Him, I have felt both an immense sense of peace and, yes, even joy in the sadness, anger, and helplessness.

Not too long ago, Jared and I were caught in a deadly snowstorm on top of a mountain. Throughout the ordeal I had a strong and undeniable sense of peace that God would bring us to safety. Both Jared and I had the same song going though our heads, even though we never sang it out loud.

The verses of Mosaic’s song, “Tremble,” still bring me chills and will forever be a reminder that He has power over every darkness.

“Still call the sea to still

The rage in me to still

Every wave at your name.

Jesus, Jesus, You make the darkness tremble

Jesus, Jesus, You silence fear

Jesus, Jesus, You make the darkness tremble

Jesus, Jesus.”

—Monika Bossart

The Calm in the Storm (a reflection on the psalms)

Psalm 42